Still alive

[karlht]

It is so loud inside my head that I'm having trouble getting words to come out.

Somehow I manage to get up in the morning, get myself dressed, and stumble through the day. But I have no idea how I keep doing it.

One step and then the next, until it all comes crashing down.

Comments

[kshandra]

I know that feel.

[karlht]

I suspected you might. I hope your winter is going better than this.

Big hugs from our household to yours. Hang in there, love.

[kshandra]

I hope your winter is going better than this.

It is, for the most part. Love and hugs right back to you.

[fufaraw]

Oh hon. I have worlds of empathy, but sadly, no good advice. Hold on, just hold on. There are people to whom your mere presence on this planet is important (I'm one. Just so you know). I see you. And it's okay if you can't make words and give them air. You will get there again, I promise. It all comes around again, thank goodness. Or dammit, depending on your point in the cycle.

I love you.

[karlht]

I love you, too. Thank you so much for being you -- your empathy and compassion have helped me get through so many rough times.

You are a wonder and a delight, and I am unfathomably fortunate to have you in my life.

[cupcake_goth]

Much love to you.

[karlht]

Oh, this made me smile. Thank you -- I loved those photos you just put up over on your account!

Much love back to you, my dear friend. You are a treasure among treasures.

[cofax7]

I'm so sorry. As they say, the only way out is through. But I'm sure that things can and often do get better. Hang in there!

[karlht]

I'll do my best. I know, intellectually, that this won't last forever, that the week after the time change always kicks my ass.

But wow, there were a lot of things that went sideways at once. And I haven't exactly been long on spoons this year in the first place.

Thanks very much for your support -- I miss seeing the Bay Area gang, but I have little to no social energy these days (see above re: spoons.)

But I think of you fondly and often, and I keep up with your posts here pretty well.

[graydon2]

Comforts from afar. I hope it gets a little easier soon.

[karlht]

Thanks, Graydon. Today was a bit better; getting out and walking for a while helped.

I miss you at work, and I hope you that your life is treating you well.

[chicating]

Never got to see this when it mattered.
Still here for you always, babe.